Monday, June 29, 2015

Una Conquistadora

La Placa de Catalunya 2006
“This city is beautiful, so many streets and walkways bending around. I could wander forever, or at least five days more! The sounds are fantastic. I wandered through the Gothic district by the Picasso museum all while a clarinet filled the space, almost mournfully, echoing back and forth between the close old walls.” 

  • November 25th 2006

I wanted to see the entire world and just by virtue of cost, Barcelona was my first adventure into a land not expressed in English. I buckled my seat belt with shaky hands and suppressed a tiny wisp of desperate fear as announcements filled the airplane’s cabin with melodic exotic Spanish. And as one thing tends to lead to another; Spain led to Peru, led to France, led to England, led to Mexico, led to Thailand, led back Spain, led to Italy and once again, led to Spain. Every step I have taken has connected me back to that first late night in Barcelona, jet lagged and confused, walking wide-eyed and without direction as ice cream dripped down from it’s cone perch over my knuckles.  

Despite many returns to Spain, I had not yet revisited Barcelona in particular. So as our group of singers descended from our Montserrat adventure, I had wondered if the same magic and artistic fascination, that I had felt years ago, would once again grab my heart and hold me close. After a short stop on a very windy Montjuic, hilltop home of the 1929 World Fair and the 1992 summer Olympics, (and site of countless executions before and during the Spanish Civil War, but we won’t dwell on that..) our bus weary bodies were only too happy to be dropped at the doorstep of our very lovely hotel.   Upon receiving the room key and a reminder of a group dinner in two hours time, I quickly abandoned my bag to an empty hotel room and slipped out into the embrace of a Barcelona evening. 

La Placa de Catalunya 2006
Our hotel, located just steps from La Placa de Catalunya, a square of about 50,000 meters with streets jutting off like the spokes of a bicycle, served as the perfect springboard for tiny unnoticed escapes from the group. As I rushed to meet the night, I savored in the cacophony of languages and footsteps, the scent of wet stones, perfume and sea, the blur of color streaking over a backdrop of the blue young night. I walked La Rambla, the pedestrian path that leads one through the heart of the city to the sea’s edge. The viewfinder of my camera remained within inches of my eye, street performers warred for attention with food and flower stalls. A flower could be had for a Euro, a scarf for 3 Euro, a smile from a human statue for an unknown clink of coins.  

When walking La Rambla towards the Mediterranean, The warm brown and gold facade of Casa Beethoven beckons on the left. In business since 1880 and full of the dusty scent of undisturbed reams of music, Casa Beethoven serendipitously gifted me with the sheet music of Spain’s own Manuel de Falla. Tucking the little package under my arm, I continued on, stopping only when the scent of fresh fruit, chocolate and saffron pulled me aside. Turning to the left again, I entered and wove my way through the tiny stalls of La Boqueria. Tracing it’s lineage to the 12th century, La Boqueria assaults the senses with vibrantly colored and crisply scented, proudly displayed produce, spices, meats, and confections. Packed in with hundreds of excited tourists, I quickly moved past the first few stalls and into the quieter depths of the market. Upon purchasing enough saffron to scent my luggage and elevate my food for a year, I emerged from the market, eager to touch the sea before racing back to our group dinner.  

I passed the 19th century Gran Teatre del Liceu, pausing only briefly to marvel over the current printed opera season, I circled the 200 foot monument to Columbus, winking up at him trapped on his pedestal above and I crossed quickly to the boardwalk, hearing the water gently lap against the wood and rock. I took a breath tasting salt, faced Rome, waved to Saint Peter and then turned around, the promise of food fueling my harried footsteps back to the hotel. 

Some people adore stately Madrid, others are for Valencia’s warmth, and still others are called to the resilience of the Basque Bilbao, But it is Barcelona who writes songs in my heart and presses flowers between the pages of my music. 





























Monday, June 22, 2015

Your Mother Was a Hamster


Some of us, who shall remain nameless, make bad choices. (Carlos, Patrick, Murnie, Susan and myself..) Some of us had decided that after a morning spent singing in two of Zaragoza’s most stunning churches, after spending an afternoon wandering the beautiful city, after getting dressed up and actually applying mascara, after rehearsing, eating, singing a concert, and eating again... some of us STILL decided that we needed to go out to celebrate. Some of us forgot that in Spain, the wine is way too delicious for our own good. Some of us dragged our clumsy, inebriated carcasses to bed at an unholy hour. And, if some of us happened to speak nonsense in our sleep or snore forcibly that night..  well, who’s to say?    


Dawn came viciously early.  My eyeballs pulsed from the inside and my mouth was full of cotton as I sloppily packed my things. I raced downstairs towards the continental breakfast and life-saving coffee, vowing to consume at least  32 ounces before our bus showed up. Upon reaching the lobby, I ran into Susan. She looked perfect, not a trace of strain in her eyes, her hair and clothing neat, her ever present congenial smile in place.

I. Hated. Her.

How could the universe smite me so?? I railed at the heavens, I bemoaned the injustice in the world, I cried out for mercy, and then I sat down with my trough of coffee and found my way back to being human. Moments later, we boarded our bus and said goodbye to a beautiful Zaragoza, bathed in the soft caressing glow of an early morning sun.

There really are cures to hangovers though; eggs and hash browns, the aforementioned industrial strength coffee, horse sized tylenol, dark rooms, muzzled children... But what I am sure is NOT a cure... is riding three hours on an oversized bus up the side of a mountain, switch-back after acid reflux inducing switch-back, while warming up and rehearsing for a performance that we were already running late for.  However, despite my compromised condition, I still felt a strong sense of anticipation as our bus climbed closer to the clouds. 

In 880 A.D. a group of shepherd children witnessed a bright light coming down from the heavens as angelic music filled the air. The children ran excitedly home to tell their parents, and unlike the parents of today, who would immediately take their hallucinating children to the psychologist, the 9th century parents actually believed their children. For the proceeding month, the miracle continued and upon following the light, the villagers discovered a grotto containing La Moreneta, or the Black Madonna. Later, a bishop had thought to move the black Madonna, which was rumored to have been carved by Saint Luke, to another site, but Mary had other ideas. The statue became so heavy that she could not be moved, and so within a century, four chapels had been built on the top of the mountain, surrounding her.  By the 11th century, the monastery had been built and due to large numbers of pilgrims showing up, the grand Basilica was consecrated in 1592.

Montserrat, or 'serrated mountain,' located about 25 miles northwest and 4000 ft up from Barcelona, is the birthplace of much lore and many miracles. Not only home to the black Madonna, and a place of inspiration for Saint Ignatius, Montserrat is also rumored to be the home of the Holy Grail, which causes one to begin badly quoting Indiana Jones, or better yet, Monty Python.  'I fart in your general direction. Your mother was a hamster and your father smelled of elderberries!'  

One should consider though, that the Holy Grail is also said to be in Leon Spain, Genoa Italy, Rosslyn Chapel Scotland, Glastonbury England, a hole in the ground in Nova Scotia, Fort Knox Kentucky and my favorite, Accokeek Maryland.  We may never know if we were within a few breaths of the very cup of Christ.

As I mentioned before, we were running late and when that is the case, there is only one guarantee…stairs. Our bus hastily dropped us a couple blocks down as vehicles aren't generally allowed in the Montserrat complex. Many of us raced to the public restrooms (OUR Holy Grail!) as others began the stunning yet tiring climb to the the basilica. While rushing up stairs, our choir members were reminded of our mortality through the complaints of our over taxed knees, raging motion sickness and racing beta blocker laced hearts. We arrived in the basilica, sweaty and harried, but as the voices of Montserrat's Escolonia (boys choir) greeted us, our discomforts melted away. Tracing it's lineage back to the early 1300s, the Escolonia keeps a demanding schedule, singing multiple times a day, six days a week. World renowned, the angelic voices of these boys are surely a convincing echo of the miracle voices that our young shepherds had heard 1100 years before. 


We watched the boys file off to head back to their classes as we prepared to line up on the altar steps. We sang through our selections as our eyes took in the heavy gilding and ostentatious decor of the 16th century basilica. 

Still battling exploding eyeballs and motion sickness, I stepped up to sing the solo in ‘I’m Gonna Sing till the Spirit Moves in my Heart,’ a solo that is meant to come from the very core of one’s being. However, I suspect that my churning woozy core had turned my skin to a shiny pea green shade and my palms clammy. I am not sure what sort of sounds came out of my mouth but I could see that once Patrick sang his part and the choir joined in, the parents, children, teachers, students and pilgrims and tourists who bustled around the stunning church had turned our way, stymied and delighted to hear such different American music in their midst. 

After our mini performance, we stopped to chat with some of the people in the audience, thrilled to discover that one couple had wandered over from Minnesota, connecting well with our director of Fargo origins.  Another couple, a Polish wife and Argentinian husband asked where we would be singing next. They hugged us happily and promised to see us the very next day in Barcelona.

Upon gathering in the courtyard outside of the basilica, our tour guide/warden Cristina told us that we had two hours before meeting the train down the mountain. And with little prompting, our choir members quickly scattered like the seeds of a dandelion. 

I wandered, camera in hand, past the lovely little food stalls full of tiny jars of honey, cheese and baked goods. Rather than sit down to a lunch in a very meat smelling cafeteria with the others, (remember the queasy stomach..) I opted to buy a small bag of nuts and dried fruit. I then proceeded to feed myself and the surrounding birds while snapping photos of the spectacular views and beautiful monastery, the fresh air calming my shaky stomach. 

Slowly we all trickled back to the tiny train station, excited to board our train, eager to  descend from the mountain into the beauty and vitality of a saucy Barcelona.  


 





Photo Credit to Ellen Peirce who caught me luring pigeons with dried fruit..















Saturday, June 20, 2015

Alfajarín

"It is true that our life is a pilgrimage, a trip, a journey, and it depends on us to make it more of a vital one, or a more spiritual one where we decide to uniquely have fun for the sake of the present moment, or to invest in meaningful memories, believing they count toward our growth as spiritual                                                               creatures."  
                                                                   - Carlos Miguel-Pueyo


I sometimes battle anxiety.. Crowds and loud noises can turn me into a sweaty mess and at times, cause me to step back from living. I despise this weakness. 

One clear warm summer evening, I stood outside of a beautiful open air theater in the heart of Bella Roma. Though my friend was jumping through hoops to get us into a sold out show, I started to feel the rising unexpected tide of a panic attack, the quickening breath, the clamminess, the rapid heart beat, the loss of focus, the oversensitivity to sound. I fought silently, unwilling to give voice to symptoms that I rationalized were just in my head. “We can listen from outside,” I said, attempting yet again to step back from living. But as a friend of ours worked for the theater, we were ushered in and were able to tuck ourselves into a quiet corner. As I sat measuring my breaths, the sun sank below the horizon, bathing the sky in a deep bluish purple, while traces of orange disappeared behind winking stars. A soft breeze ruffled the hair of the beautiful Italians surrounding us as seagulls flew silently above. The air smelled of earth and sea and wine flavored with faint expensive perfume. A thunderous applause rolled through the audience as Pino Daniele stepped out on stage, picked up his guitar and began to sing.  His voice drifted gently to every corner of the hypnotized theater and my heart slowed; my fears forgotten in my instant love for this darling of Napoli. 

Mere months later, on a cold Chicago January day, news that Italy’s dear guitar playing tenor had passed on, reached me across the ocean. Pino Daniele had played his last earthbound note, but not before I had a chance to hear him and add his voice to the influences that make up my own. He had unknowingly and momentarily given me a sense of calm.  Grazie. 

******

In the year leading up to the choir pilgrimage to Spain, I vacillated daily. Every Monday night after our Tower Chorale rehearsals, Patrick and Carlos would begin their appeals... “Come on Jen!! We’ll have so much fun!!” or “There is a solo for you!” I struggled. “Should I go? Will every daily performance be a battle against panic? Will I exhaust myself in a constant clash with my own mind?” Fear wanted me to stay home, but one Sunday, Carlos and I stood around my piano, trading Spanish lessons for voice lessons. While his voice worked lovingly through Schubert’s “Ave Maria,” I realized that I wanted to see his hometown, I wanted hear my friend sing as a returned prodigal son (albeit successful..)  I wanted to drink wine with his parents. I wanted late nights with friends and harmonies in medieval churches.  I was going to Spain. After all, I would be heading off to the land of Don Quijote, and what did he do? He tossed fears aside as useless training wheels, raised his sword bravely (though foolishly) and raced headlong to wage war against his own giant windmills.  

Photo stolen from the internet...
On the morning of our bus ride into Zaragoza, Murnie and I peered toward the back of the bus at Carlos, seeing tension lining his face and body. “He looks a little rough.”  Murnie snickered and scrunched up her face, “I’d be nervous too if I were bringing THIS group to my hometown.”  As the afternoon siesta waned, our choir members trickled down to the hotel lobby, dressed in concert best, excitedly clutching music and talking animatedly. We boarded a bus and rode the 15 minutes southeast to Alfajarín, anticipating the moment when we would see the home of our darling Carlos.  

Alfajarín, built in the shadow of the hilltop Castillo, served as the lookout over the Ebro River, protecting the eastern front of the kingdom of Zaragoza. With the Pyrenees and France to the north, the Ebro River to the south, Barcelona and the Mediterranean to the the East and countless wheat fields and olive trees in between, present day Alfajarín is a quiet hamlet of nearly 2,000 inhabitants, all of whom seemed to pack the cheery interior of Iglesia Parroquial de San Miguel Arcángel for Carlos’ return.  

We stepped off our plush tour bus and looked wide eyed at the tiny town around us. A large stork, freshly returned from her annual winter pilgrimage (migration) to Mecca, curiously watched us from her perch in her gargantuan nest atop a village building. We walked slowly through the tiny town courtyard and into the church for our early evening rehearsal. As we organized our music and rehearsed our way through any last minute glitches, our eyes took in the lovely amiable yellow walls with their hard earned cracks and pale cream moulding. We faced well loved scarred wooded pews and to our left hand side stood a nearly life size statue of Jesus on a donkey.  (and any church that includes a donkey is just fine by me!) Within Patrick’s reach sat a lovely shiny black Yamaha grand piano that Mary Ann had generously and thoughtfully sponsored in honor of her husband, before leaving us to watch the concert with him from above. In the altar behind us, Saint George stood in his typical historically questionable pose, sword raised, his boot on a vanquished dragon and nearby, our cherished Saint Gregory looked proudly on. 

As we finished our rehearsal, the surprisingly young mayor of Alfajarín and his gorgeous wife led us to the town hall where conversations in English, Spanish, and a version of Spanish so shamefully bad that it needed it’s own name, competed with the sound of blissful chewing. A delicious spread was laid out, consisting of jamon, tortilla (potato omelette...a.k.a God’s brunch of choice..), varying types of olives, manchego cheese, bread, chips and a simple tomato spread that based on consumption rates, I am positive contained traces of addictive narcotics.  Upon asking for the recipe, I was stunned to learn that it was simply tomatoes, garlic, olive oil and salt. Ah, such delicious simplicity! Little candies and chocolates were sprinkled thoughtfully between the other main dishes. One such candy tasted exactly as I imagine Cap’n Crunch cereal would, had someone thought to dip it in chocolate. (I slipped a couple of these in my pocket..then forgot...it was a mess.) 


After stuffing ourselves silly, we waddled back to the church, our anticipation burning off any sort of residual food coma. We lined up and filed onto the altar steps, facing an entire village of beaming faces. We began our program with ‘Ave Maria’ by Spain’s own Victoria, after which our men led us happily and briskly though ‘Te, Ioseph.’  We followed that with our ever so American rendition of 'Down to the Water to Pray.’ Keri  and her French horn accompanied us with seemingly endless breath through the eloquent and apt lines of ‘The Servant Song.
“We are pilgrims on a Journey.  We are travelers on the road.
  We are here to help each other walk the mile and bear the load.”

Next, we sang the incredibly tight and rich a cappella harmonies of the moving Stephen Paulus ‘Pilgrim’s Hymn while the eyes of the audience followed along in reading the Spanish translations in the program. Our choir member, David Lux then picked up a borrowed Washburn electro-acoustic guitar and started to play the familiar, well-loved strains of ‘Pescador de Hombres.’  Our voices happily worked through the Spanish lyrics, our energy fueled by the smiles and the unconscious swaying and tapping feet of the merry crowd before us. 

After the choir finished singing ‘Lord, How Lovely is your Dwelling Place,’ and ‘Hymn of Wisdom,’ Carlos stepped nervously forward with clutched hands and rigid posture. As the soothing 16th note triplets of Schubert’s ‘Ave Maria rose from the piano, Carlos took deep breaths and began his solo, his hymn to Mary. After months of hard work and practice, Carlos sang his first solo in front of nearly everyone he knew, surprising his parents and warming hearts. He bowed to enthusiastic applause while many tears were subtly wiped away.

We continued our homage to Mary by singing Francisco Santiago’s powerful setting of ‘Ave Maria,’ lovingly arranged by our maestro, Patrick, for choir, piano and horn. We began our remembrance set, our hearts heavy with thoughts of Mary Ann, but as we sang through the lush harmonies of ‘In Remembrance,’ and ‘Do This in Remembrance of Me,’ we felt her voice joining with ours, easing our sadness into love.  We sang in Icelandic through the straight tone openness of ‘Heyr, Himna Smiður.

Throughout our concert, tears had been shed, smiles shared, children had sat cross-legged on the floor in the aisles, hands had been held, and fears had been overcome. As speeches of gratitude were made and we presented our hosts with an icon of Saint George, painted by Saint Gregory’s own resident iconographer, Joe Malham, we realized that the residents of Alfajarín had given our group of 60 unknown Americans, the priceless unquestionable gift of welcome and warmth and a beautiful taste of Spain.    

After our cheeks had been thoroughly kissed, after our exchanged hugs and last minute goodbye waves, the Saint Gregory Choir left the glow of Alfajarín’s church and headed off into the night, towards yet another gluttonous meal... 


















The Mayor gifted us with this little castle of Alfajarín!


El Hombre Famoso!!

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Ode to the Blackhawks

 Ode to the Blackhawks

The windshield wipers swish
The heavens explode
The rain pours down
flooded roads
cars hydroplaning 
endless slow motion expressway.

a child in the next car
big eyed and staring out the rain speckled window

a pizza delivery truck ahead
trail mix in the glove compartment
talk radio

Take the next exit to anywhere
leave the highway for roads unknown 
an escape from a sea of brake lights
a limping rain drenched beggar and his sign
a momentarily clear way, a green light, an arrow

an uncharted meandering
home the north star
neon store fronts
reflections 
Readings by Maria
“Franks”ville
Joe E’s Unforgettable Lounge
Olga’s Deli
Pawn Shops

the city west side
brake lights ahead
streets unexpectedly closed
police everywhere
directing drivers away or towards
no one knows
Honking starts, long drawn out compression of horns
shouting, screaming, whistling, frantic jumping of those beside the road
gunshots?
Just fireworks in gas station parking lots
Is that even safe? 
bright lights in the distance

the roar of a city

on closer inspection,
smiles 
laughter
drunken revelry 
giddiness 
flags waving 
comraderie
connection

Has there been a revolution
a coup d'état?

No,

The Blackhawks have won!