Pastry Abstinence…Pfft!

"Hmm.. just out for a stroll, you say?"

Back in the early 1500s, young Teresa de Cepeda y Ahumada knew exactly how the world should run, and she wasn’t afraid to make it happen. So, it was with no great surprise that her father discovered her and her easily led brother, Rodrigo, outside the city walls of Ávila, attempting to run away in order to fight the Moors. At the time, our little martyr wanna-be, Teresa, was seven years old.  Amazingly, this was only one of many attempts and each time someone showed up at the door toting a runaway future saint, her parents must have rolled their eyes and tugged at their hair in bewildered frustration. One can only imagine that this was the true origin of the current “free range” parenting method..

"What? I am soo NOT reading a romance novel!!"

 Though Teresa’s teenage years were    marked by a slight obsession with self  image  and popular fiction (knights  tales) She didn’t take long to get herself  back on track. Upon entering the  Carmelite order, she immediately felt  frustrated at the indifference of the other nuns towards their vows. Teresa set about creating a new order, much more formal and austere, a new order recognizable by their lack of shoes and shirking of extravagance. Of course, those around her were less than thrilled with being called out and spiritually shown up.. 

It was with great irony that in the home town of a saint known for her strictness and self restraint, I found myself nearly licking the window of a bakery on a sunny late afternoon. In Ávila, thoughts of pious abstinence fled from my mind. Despite having lost the rest of my group, despite not knowing where the bus was and despite the very real threat of having to take a train to Zaragosa if the bus left without me, Satan tempted me and I succumbed to gluttony in it’s most delicious form. As I opened the bakery door, a warm breath of sweet cream scented air greeted me along with the guilty gazes of other straggler choir members. I pointed out my chosen sinful decadent pastry to the woman behind the counter and as she rang me up for the unexpectedly low price of one euro, I instantly regretted not buying five more pastries. I still regret that... In fact, I would greatly enjoy one more right now. 

The problem with villages built on top of hills is that the church is always at the top, and our choir always needed to get to that church. Our afternoon began by being herded from our bus, up a series of escalators (much like Toledo) and through the lovely, upward slanting, narrow cobbled streets. The town of Ávila, having existed in some form or other for a couple thousand years, had surrounded herself in the 11th century with a still intact 39 foot wall, serving as a chastity belt for her Christian values. By the time Teresa entered the scene in 1515, the great expulsion of the Jews and Moors was already 23 years in the past and her grandfather had long since been condemned to death by the inquisition for returning to his Jewish heritage. Teresa existed in a world almost entirely occupied by Christians of varying devotion (or lack thereof..)  

Convento de Santa Teresa

When the Saint Gregory Choir stepped into the Catedral de Ávila, five hundred years later, Ávila, located about 60 miles northwest of Madrid, had become a Unesco World Heritage sight, and home to approximately sixty thousand residents, still predominantly Roman Catholic. As we craned our necks to look at everything at once inside the 12 century cathedral, the smell of cool, stone infused age surrounded us. We lined up, pulled out our creased copies of Saint Teresa’s Bookmark, and blended our voices in a series of unexpected dissonance and occasional resolution, portraying the difficulties of praying for calm and patience amidst turmoil.

We stepped back out into the day, continuing our walk through Ávila, past men carefully placing the individual stones of a new road, past lovely little storefronts temporarily closed for afternoon siesta (our tour had impeccably bad timing in this regard..many times wandering through sleeping villages.) and on to the Convento de Santa Teresa, where we 'oohed' and 'aahed' over a preserved finger of Saint Teresa. After enthusiastically emptying our wallets in the gift shop, we strolled along the sun warmed walls surrounding the city as we slowly and reluctantly made our way back towards the bus... some of us slower than others, as there were bakeries in need of patrons..

Late that evening, while some choir members dreamed away in their plush luxurious beds, others gathered downstairs in the overstuffed chairs and couches of the Parador Nacionel Castillo de Sigüenza. Though once merely old moorish ruins, the castle was rescued and restored in 1971 by the ministry of tourism. Now a high end hotel, the parador, full of beautiful carved wood furniture and hand woven textiles, offered warmth and sanctuary to a group of weary singers. 

Giddy at staying in a castle and full to our throats from a decadent, well prepared multi course dinner, we lounged sated with drinks in hand, laughing, talking, sharing stories, singing and living... though perhaps not in the way that our dear austere Saint Teresa would have approved of...

Let nothing disturb thee,
nothing affright thee,

All things are passing;

God never changeth.

Patient endurance attaineth through all things

Who God possesseth, nothing is wanting.
God sufficeth. 

-St Teresa

My, how we fall...

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